LIVING MY TRUTH

Lately I’ve been working on stepping into my truth. And I mean a few things when I say this.

First, I think about how I’m stepping into my divine truth. My divine purpose for being on this earth. I generally know what my purpose is, but I feel overwhelmed by the number of options I have to go about fulfilling this purpose. I have so many ideas, and get ridiculously energized by the thought of these ideas, but sometimes I get all up in my own head. Lately I’ve been asking God to continue revealing to me THE plan and setting this as my intention before my meditations.

(Side note: I often get asked the difference between prayer and meditation. For me, prayer is talking to God and having a dialogue. Meditation is sitting in stillness so I can receive the Divine guidance vs having a dialogue. I’m quieting my mind and becoming present, so I can listen.)

Now this doesn’t mean I’m just sitting around being a couch potato in the meantime. Haha. For anyone that knows me, this is far from how I operate, which funny enough, is what got me to where I’m at today (I eventually burnt out from the constant need to do more).

I’m moving forward with projects that come my way and deeply resonate with my purpose. However, I’m staying open to the possibility of this journey being able to shift at any moment. Something could come out of left field, which might mean I have to pull a u-ey (is that how you spell it?!?) and go in a new direction. Now this doesn’t mean it will be some grandiose event, so here’s an example.

A couple weeks ago I booked a last minute airline ticket out to Medford, OR because an opportunity to study with Dr. Jean Houston appeared out of thin air (I’m being dramatic, but that’s kinda what it felt like!). Now this trip was completely unexpected, but when the opportunity came up, I knew I had to say YES. Once I did, the magic happened.

I was able to use miles for the flight, the accommodations came together seamlessly and everything just fell into place. This is what I mean by being ready. When experiences come our way, and we know it’s a YES, we step up and welcome these events with as much grace and ease as humanly possible given the circumstances.

The hardest part of this process for me has been trusting that I’m ready. Ready for the journey. Ready for the divine truth to be fully exposed. Ready to say YES with an intensity that lights me up and springs me forward into the unknown. The journey has begun, I’ve already started saying YES, but I know there is so much more to come. So I’m holding strong in honoring my truth.

One of my fears is the fear of rejection. I know that part of my path will involve speaking and teaching, but it’s teaching some ideas and speaking about subjects that could challenge the current status quo, and for some might seem radical, “new agey” or just plain crazy talk. So this fear is a fear of being able to stand strong and continue to pursue my truth knowing this is my divine path.

So my second point I feel compelled to share is about speaking my truth, whereas, I was just talking about stepping into my truth. Now I’m shifting to the power of speaking my truth.

In order to help me get prepared (because I just mentioned I have a fear of rejection), God has been sending me little nuggets of situations where I’m learning to speak my truth in all sorts of situations.

It could be in a conversation with a friend where I’m having to get vulnerable about my feelings or thoughts. It comes up in normal, everyday conversation with familiar faces in anything from the simpler, less challenging conversations like, “what do you feel like doing today,” to the good ole’, loaded “worldly event” conversations. I’m speaking up and standing up to my truth.

What I’m realizing this morning is when I’m in a situation where I know I need to speak my truth, I FEEL this truth. I hope that makes sense. I’m trying to find the words to explain it, so hear me out.

Sometimes it shows up as a voice. I could have a thought of what I want to say in any given situation, start to shy away and tell myself all the super “valid” reasons why I shouldn’t, but then something happens. I get goosebumps. And goosebumps for me are a sense that the Divine is saying, “YES.” YES to validating the feelings/thoughts I had. Or it is just a strong sense of knowing. It’s that gut feeling. These sensations, lets call them, guide me in how I live my life. They guides me in making decisions and give me the courage to speak my truth.

When I have these sensations, I acknowledge the experience -- I usually smile at the beauty of what just happened -- and express gratitude for the feeling. Gratitude for this opportunity to learn and grow. For the opportunity to heal a piece of me by letting go of emotional baggage that no longer serves me.  

And guess what my friends? Every time I’ve gotten into a situation and spoken my truth, I’ve never once regretted it. Sometimes I get shy and don’t want to say what’s on my mind, but then I do, and I’ve found myself in such beautiful conversations.

I’ve had such powerful revelations and experiences come up after speaking my truth and saying what’s on my big ole’ heart. And I find that when I speak my truth, and show a little vulnerability, that the other person mirrors this response. Remember, every person we come in contact with is a reflection of ourselves in some way. Every experience brings us a lesson, helps us heal and provides insight into questions we’ve been asking the universe.

And it feels freakin’ good! I feel empowered. Speaking my truth is freeing.

Today I encourage you to step into your truth and to speak your truth. If you’re on the path to discovering your truth, ask yourself these questions.

  • How can I help?

  • How can I serve the world?

  • What is my purpose?

Here is how I would go about this.

  • Find a quiet space.

  • Sit or lay down.

  • Close your eyes if this feels comfortable to you. If not, find something that isn’t moving and focus on that (i.e. you could light a candle and focus on the flame or maybe focus on a spot on the floor that is a few inches away from where you’re sitting).

  • Take a few deep breaths and focus on your breath.

  • Now allow your breath to naturally flow in, and flow out. Not controlling it or concentrating at this point, just simply observing the breath as it naturally flows in and flows out.

  • Then ask yourself these questions one at a time. When you ask these questions, simply listen. You might hear something. Maybe you see an image. Maybe there is a sensation in your body. Just rest and listen, but don’t force the answers.

  • After the meditation, journal your experiences.

All you have to do is be open. Be open and willing to receive. And then follow your truth. Follow that feeling in your heart. Only you know what that is, so trust yourself. Trust that intuition of yours!

And if you need to speak your truth. I’m sending all the grace, ease, compassion, empathy, confidence, courage and bravery you need in order to do this. I know you’re ready, but you have to believe it for yourself. Don’t be afraid. Ask God to guide you, and the words will flow just as they should.

I believe in you and I LOVE YOU!

Wishing all you beautiful souls a wonder-filled holiday season.


Libby Rapin